To all of you inspired by Sonia’s insight I encourage you to find the magic each of us have but few take the courage to find. Sonia is and remains a warm human being a renaissance woman.
What is it to be wild? We have created lives full of obligation, commitment, information overload and ultimately busyness. Have we sold our souls in the name of comfort and materialism? Is something missing?Those questions drew me to participate in a Wild Self adventure with Sonia in the beauty that is Central Otago.Our first full day started with the magic of the Clutha River, swift, cold and invigorating and finished in a hut in the remoteness of the Old Woman range. No cell phone, no TV, no news. In the company of new friends and surrounded by sweeping landscape and stones planted in the ground by long lost glaciers and the movement of the earth.It felt like this place returned me to innocence as if I was back in the womb with my life stretching before me with so many roads to choose. The stress of my week was long gone. What a magic place. If freedom still exists it was there.We finished our time together back on the Clutha, paddle boarding with dark clouds threatening, the river bank racing by.In our journey with Sonia we learnt to walk consciously, we were led through meditations amongst the stones, the wind whistling through the tussocks, we sat in circles and connected with ourselves, with each other and with nature. In the hills I could feel the silence, at times my minds eye let me roam as if a wild animal or a bird. And we explored.Nature is healing. To sit quietly, to share, to listen are equally so. I was reminded how important meditation is.Thank you, Sonia, for encouraging me on this adventure and giving me a renewed commitment to the routines and rituals needed for me to find my freer, wilder self.
Kia Ora It is a time in not just New Zealand’s history but the worlds history, an event that changed our lives and caused divisions among our population.I call it Black Friday.I have been talking and meeting with like minded people over the last six months, who do work at the present that would fit the mold of my Sparta initiative, and when I saw an ad promoting Wildself, I knew I had to learn more about it.I messaged Sonia, met her via video link and a date was set for my recce.One week before my journey south, the unthinkable happened in my City “the garden city”, a far right extremist stole the lives of 50 praying Muslims and wounded many more. A day Jacinda called New Zealand’s darkest day.Sonia is soft spoken, an attractive and intelligent middle aged woman. A welcoming smile and a heart that warms the cockles of your belly. But don’t be fooled by her physical appearance, her form contains a strong, self driven and a spiritual awareness that is seldom in today’s society.She knows who she is and in that knowledge she projects an inner strength that is contagious. I dare not tell her, but she beholds air about her, one I liken to a Smiling Assassin.The river swim in the Clutha, was swift and naturally cold and refreshing, the walk up the Old Woman range was woven with meditation, stories and the beautiful scenery, a landscape trapped in time of the bygone era, majestic and vast. If the swim didn’t awaken your senses, the trek in this beautiful wilderness will.I soaked it all in.A sleepover in Old Woman hut chatting with hunters before bed.The next day reflecting on thoughts, words we start our journey back to the cars.Stopping for lunch, further down the track we find a spot among the rocks. Sonia has a beautiful melodic voice. Sounding vibrations along with her instructions to find and be your primal and Wildself. A dimension in oneself that is infinitely more vast than the surrounding openness of the wild Central Otago Country itself.It must be said heaven is not a location, but an inner realm of consciousness. On this journey Sonia will take you there.
“I have found I can trust my truth deeply and it is in the gentle expression of personal truth that safety and trust are created in which love and loving touch can flow … ”“River floating is like flying … I can feel at any time now, the flow of the river, like all the cells in my body are aligned with her, part of her, the calm and relaxation is helping me sleep deeply and the dreaming that is rising from that place is … magical!”“I traveled to depths where I retrieved my breathing and voice … messages from this weekend feel potent for changing my life”“This feels like deep healing”Please note references to Voice work are thanks to co-creator Tahlia Brand.
Thank you!Just like for everyone who comes near you…. A little bit of your positive energy rubs off and my life is all the better for it! And then somehow even onto my family. My husband made some of his own bold and insightful insights into aspects of himself tonight and that NEVER happens! Haha
From start to finish Sonia’s gentle spoken and breathing guidance eases you into an imagery of anchoring ones self to the earth as you empty your thoughts around the stone circle and then embark on a climb to the sky. I highly recommend a one on one connection as a wondrous journey of mind and soul.
Conscious Adventuring with Sonia... With her voice Sonia asked us to focus on our steps, on the placement of our feet, to pick our path and to feel each foot connect with the ground. One step at a time. That getting to the top was irrelevant, being in the journey was important.Her words brought me into my body through my feet. Our slow pace left me with the time to see the beauty around me – which I had got into the habit of rushing past. The different colours and shapes of the trees, the changing nature of the track – gravel, rocky, hard mud - the small details. Both of us had a fear of heights which Sonia doesn’t. One of the breaks from walking was to sit on a rocky outcrop high above the bush below. She asked us to feel the rock we were sitting on, to imagine its solidness sustained over a long period of time, to connect with the rock through out tails, to feel our anxiety and to wash it from our bodies and into the rock.... On a side path we lay on the bright green moss surrounded by forest. Sonia led us through a mediation. To feel the warmth of the moss below us, the connection of the trees surrounding us and around us, to make sound from deep in our bodies that resonated with our surroundings. ... Sonia led us off the path to a clearing. To stand in a patch of sunlight. We put our hands on our selves. She led us through a mediation - to feel the energy in our bodies and our breath. To feel the breeze on our skin and the sun. To feel nature around us. To feel us as nature.... As we walked we followed Sonia in feeling our wings, moving our arms and placing our feet. Sonia used her voice, not singing, but sounds that resonated with our movement, lead our experience. Our breathe was audible, movement of our bodies through our spine and into our tails and wings bought us remembering our childhood. And suddenly we were at the top. With a panoramic view in front of us, a sense of achievement in the journey, bodies tingling with new sensations and an appreciation for conscious walking.Conscious biking... Sonia asked me to feel the anxiety in my body. Where was it, what did it feel like. Observe it. Sitting on the ground she led me into feeling my anus on the ground, holding my lower spine and tail bone and then to drive my dragon’s tail into the dirt, the stony gravel below the surface and deep into the ground. We breathed into the earth and bought the earths vibration up through our tails. Then in the same rhythm I was to breathe into the knot of anxiety in my core and breathe it into the earth, to suck the earths vibration up to fill its place. To breathe through it and to exhale it, I felt it dissipating, and being replaced with a softer vibration, by being present, safe. We rode on. Sonia asked me to put my hands on my chest to feel my breath going in and out, my core for any anxiety and my groin, to hold and rock small movement into my body, and to feel trust. She asked me to make sound that vibrated trust. I heard my own voice and felt my body. Sonia asked me to visualise myself back on my bike, on the track, in the pine forest. To feel the wheels turn as they moved along the track, connected to the track, the track flowing through the trees and of the earth, there to guide me safely through this terrain. I felt the bike move under me, its connection to the ground, its stability. I saw myself going downhill, moving through corners, flowing with the track, being safe. I was to take that trust on the bike with me. I didn’t sing out with my sound as she did, but maybe next time. As I listened to Sonia’s voice I imagined the flow of energy from the sun into the top of my head and through me – connecting me to the earth. She spoke of flowing with air, feeling air on our skin, in our mouths and lungs, and flying like birds along the next section of track. I was still feeling the sun though and loving the trees and flow of energy. The final section of track is fast and banked with steep corners, with anxiety and hesitation long forgotten, I felt the exhilaration of speed and the flow of, and connection with, the earth.